Trust, Dealing with anger… And realizations that come from that.

Last Monday, I was rear ended. The people that hit me are now claiming that they didn’t hit me and don’t have a clue what is going on. I was furious at first. I tend to have a very trusting nature and living in the trailer park has enhanced that. Everyone around me is nice and honest and people work and pick up the pay for their work late.

I have to remember that not everyone is that way. These people that hit me have now called me a scam artist along with many other unpleasant names and honestly made me mad enough that for a bit, I thought instead of filing, I should vent my frustration on their car. When I get super upset, it actually makes me physically sick. My stomach rolls and anything I eat makes me nauseous so I spend a day being sick. One whole day wasted on people who don’t deserve the time of day. I will say for now, insurance is dealing with it and we will see what comes from that.

One this this anger and frustration did for me was really remind me that I enjoy the way I live life at the moment.

I find myself thinking of how I enjoy waking up in the morning with my kittens and coffee and how much I enjoy most parts of my job. I love getting to greet kiddos as they come in to school and get. Started with them in my days. I also enjoy days where I get to sit outside and enjoy the weather. The trailer park breeze giving just enough relief from the sun that I can be comfortable and let the kittens chill outside with me. I can’t describe the pleasure of not feeling like I don’t have a place for things. I can look around knowing that everything I have out has a place to go up. That is so happy making. Then, to make things even better, there are many nights where I go soak in the hot tub for a while before showering and going to sleep. I feel like I am living the dream most days.

It doesn’t change the fact that I am very mad at those individuals but it does remind me I have a choice. I can focus on people and things that make my life shitty of I can focus on the things that make me feel like my life is truly amazing. It is up to me.

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2 Responses to Trust, Dealing with anger… And realizations that come from that.

  1. Crystal says:

    Great point of view! I hope the insurance company does get this all wrapped up for you though.

  2. Eric says:

    I often wonder if people like the ones that hit you can ever feel that yucky feeling that good people feel when they know they’ve done something they wish they hadn’t. Maybe not ….. but if not I feel sorry for them. Because they probably also don’t ever feel that sense of joy that good people get when they do something really good for others. Not sure how one can feel the later when the shadows of the former are hanging over you.

    Keep being you!

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