Self talk: When your mind is talking to yourself
Common self talk I do
- Do you really want fast food tonight?
- Don’t you feel better after you get a work out done?
- Don’t get angry at students.. they are having a hard time too.
- You haven’t touched that item in a month.
- That’s only a dollar.
I am trying to work on my self talk. I am actually verbally correcting myself when I say negative things or things that could potentially hold me back from my dreams.
When it comes to the reduction of items, I have a conversation with myself. I ask myself how much I use things. Why do I want to keep things? Will I miss items once they are gone? What can I do to replace the function of the item with something else. This came into play when I looked at having a microwave.
I hardly ever use a microwave. It doesn’t take that long for me to heat up food in the oven or on the stovetop. To be honest, I can’t remember the last time I used the microwave in my apartment. That lack of use indicated to me that I don’t need a microwave. I could make do without.
Lately I have been looking at my kitchen. I am thinking that I have way to many plates. I like my dish set but… I can’t imagine wanting to wash more than 2 plates.. so if I have guests, I am going to use paper plates. I use mason jars to jar most my food for the fridge and I am trying out using them to drink out of as well. I may choose to keep my thin glass cups though because I really do enjoy the feel of an actual glass in my hand. I will keep some silverware. I won’t keep the whole set I have since I don’t enjoy the set I own currently. If/when I decide to move into a house, I will plan to repurchase silverware that I like.
I plan to put my mothers china that I like into the storage unit. I love the idea of connecting to history but don’t intend to keep that much in my trailer. So there is this odd symbolism of figuring out what I plan to keep vs let go. I am letting go of so many items that reflect my past and dealing with some emotional distress that I didn’t intend to have to deal with. It has lead to some restless nights and lately some nightmares.
Such big changes! Brain, we are doing well. It is ok. This is something we have wanted for a long time. Shhhh… let me sleep.